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8/23/09

Birthday

Happy Birthday to Me! :) Today was wonderful. Although I feel like there is nothing glamorous about turning 23, Adam made it a wonderful and special weekend. We spent the morning in Corinth at Cynthia & Mark's (his sister and brother-in-law) hanging out and eating lunch. For as close as we live, we never get to see each other-which is especially lame since we always have fun when we get together with them. At 2pm, we went to see the Broadway Tour of Mamma Mia--Adam's birthday surprise for me. Do gifts get any better then that?! No, they don't! Afterwards was dinner at....Piranhas (we're so predictable!) and an August birthdays party at the Reagans. We ended the night with a treat--live Mariachi music down the street. I am so not kidding, this guy was using a keyboard, microphone and speakers (facing out to the street)at 3am. Yes. So, we danced and hung out with the Mariachis. Good Day.

8/21/09

I quit

Well, I did it. I quit my job. I even cried a little bit. But he was really understanding--I think he kind of saw it coming. He'll be out of town the next 2 weeks, so that will be exhausting, but after that I'm done. I did tell him I will work a couple weekends if he needs me to until he finds someone else.....


YAY!!!!!!!!

8/19/09

Quitting

I could cry. Well, more accurately, I want to go back to crying again...like I was earlier tonight, but I will act like a grown-up, I will...I will... We've come to an interesting intersection for us. I have been working at PM for almost 3 years now, and I have LOVED it! My boss is the kind of boss you spend all your time wishing you had, thinking about while you secretly curse your evil manager when he's not looking. My boss actually cares about me, is incredibly generous with time off, and insanely fair in the work place. The problem is...I've reached the point in our work-employee relationship that PM is no longer the place for me. Not only no longer the place, but it is actually starting to make me an anxious, irritated mess. Not exactly what I need. AND, I was just given a revised job offer, originally meant to be part-time my new job offer is for a full-time position...one that actually pertains to what I want to do after I have a Masters, mastered. Not just a job either, but one I really REALLY wanted! The problem is that while the employee is ready to quit and leave, I harbor major guilt over abandoning my friends and boss. I've discovered that's the problem about having a job you love, you can't just nonchalantly walk to the back and tell em "thanks, but I believe I'm done here". I have actually shed big, sad, crocodile tears at the mere thought of having to tell them "these next two weeks will need to be my last two". I feel guilty, ungrateful, irresponsible, and half-crazy. *sigh* But I am writing it out here, hoping for some kind of release. Maybe if I write this I will not cry half as much tomorrow when I try to explain my thought process and needs to his confused and worried face.

Or maybe I'll get lucky, and find out I don't mean half as much to him. Maybe he'll just say "alright. two weeks", turn and go on about his business. Then I could move on about mine.

...........except I think that would be much, much worse.......

8/15/09

Mongolia Pictures

I can't figure out how to add this to my sidebar here, so instead I'm just posting the link....here are all 379 Mongolia Pictures, should you care to look!

http://picasaweb.google.com/kissykeikocakes/Mongolia2009#

Post-Mongolia

So....since making it through the 30+ hours of travel back from Mongolia, I have had no luck beating the jet-lag blues. Perhaps some Ambien would have been a good thing...I have been using the 'NyQuil' approach, but am having trouble staying asleep through the night. Today I couldn't fall asleep until 8am (yes) and woke up at 4pm. Blerg!

Sadly enough...I find myself missing Mongolia. Or our experience there. I feel a little hollow and purpose-less without a daily agenda and 15 other people to share it with. *shrug* Odd. I really, really want to go back and make it some semi-regular part of my life. Somehow.

I've been a lot quieter since getting back. (this is truly shocking) I've felt like blogging, and reading, and journaling....sitting in silence and thinking. I finally called my mother today, but other than that the only person I've felt like talking to is Adam. Maybe because I don't want to break the trip's spell?

My house in little Mexico has never seemed so glamorous and inviting as after this venture to Mongolia---with tiny hard beds, bad water, lack of plumbing, lack of electricity, and no Adam! My bed has been a wondrous hideaway for my aching, confused body these past days...trying to figure out "what time is it?" and "where am I?".

I am happy to be home. Very happy. But, I miss Mongolia.

Don't tell.
PK

8/14/09

Blerg

I have accomplished nothing today. Yesterday looked like this "a hair cut"....today was "post office". Blerg. I have absolutely no desire to go to work at Piccolo Mondo, mostly because I'll telling them that my time there has come to an end and the following weeks will be my last there. :( I'll be happy to be done working there, but I feel really guilty quitting....I've worked there just short of 3 years, and my boss has been I-N-C-R-E-D-B-L-E but it really is time to go. I just dread telling him that.....and all my friends I work with....

Ick. It makes my chest hurt thinking about it.



Anxiety stinks.

Just two more weeks....

8/4/09

Day 4 in Mongolia

My Tuesday began at 6am today. After some much needed coffee and toast, I was able to capture this wonderful picture that's the view from outside my room. The walls everywhere are fences around the properties. In Mongolia, having a fence is a trump card. You can have the proof you bought the land, but if someone else comes along and fences it before you, they own it. The round tent you see in the picture is a yert, here they call it a ger. Many people use them as homes, though they are only ever 10* cooler or warmer than outside-nothing but a large tent-type structure. At wealthier homes, many people have yard guards living in the gers, to keep people from breaking in and stealing. In other yards, you see multiple gers for multiple families on one property.

After breakfast, we headed out to the grocery store to get some juice boxes to take as a treat to the kids at Mitch & Baljamaa's feeding center by the dump. The grocery store really was a lot like our grocery stores back home...until you round the corner. There, staring at me, was a large collection of sheep heads and sheep hearts. Not something we through in the cart! We headed out to the 2nd feeding center that Mitch & Baljamaa run. This one was out by the city dump where the kids are unable to go to school because their parents have them work in the dump for $1-$2 a day sorting through the trash to find recyclables. The kids were older then the other center, about 10-15 and really spent little time at the center aside from lunch. Mitch had raised enough money together to do some construction at the center, making concrete walls and a sections for the kids to bathe since they're covered in so much filth. After we helped serve lunch and played with the kids-painting nails and passing out gifts, we headed over to see the conditions these kids are living in by working at the dump. This was the first time I cried. When we pulled into the dump we saw a 10 year old run and jump onto the back of a running dump truck and climb up the back. He immediately started sorting through all the trash and when the truck began to dump they didn't wait for the kid to jump off, he just tumbled out with the trash. Around the dump, kids were scattered everywhere. The smaller ones were playing in the trash while their siblings
worked.

We made a drive outside the city to the Orphanage summer house they rent for $150 a month. Out in the country, the kids are able to run around and play without running the risk of being hit by a car or being in as much filth. The kids at the orphanage were almost totally different then the city kids. Most of them had been in the orphanage since they were infants, abandoned roadside. Brought up by the 3 ladies who work there, they get more consistent parenting, balanced meals & plenty of time to run and play. The majority of the kids were little babies & toddlers, the oldest was about 9.

Most of the little ones were napping when we arrived, like little dolls. We were able to tour the house and meet the workers before playing with all the children. The balloon animals were a major success, thanks to Tim & Joey, although the kids were small enough that throughout the afternoon there was a pretty steady *pop* *pop* as they kids squeezed or bit the balloons while they played.

Face painting went a lot smoother than in the city, with drawn up templates they could point at & choose.

At one point I could no longer hold it, broke down, and used the 'outhouse'. These are basically 3 sides of metal, tied together with a deep hole beneath a squat board, lots and lots of bugs down there. N-A-S-T-Y. But, I survived. (barely) God bless hand sanitizer and baby wipes! After spending the afternoon playing with the kids, we drove back to the city for a second English lesson. After practicing quick introductions, one of the students, who was about 18, suggested we discuss our dreams, "because dreams are a good thing, right?". No one had really prepped us for what would be discussed, and we found this a bit strange, but went ahead and talked with them. When it came time to leave, it was explained to us that the concept of having a dream or life goal is very new. Until about 3 years ago, no one even understood the concept. They associate Americans with dreams & life goals, and wanted to hear about them, because it's so foreign to them to have a plan for their lives since Communism hasn't been gone for long (it's still not really gone, it's just not the official government, but the party is still often in power and the government controls like everything). With the lesson over, we headed back to the house where we were treated by Mitch making us all some gumbo, and spending time talking to the four of them about their life in Mongolia.